Ive been in the hospital TWO WEEKS????? OH MY GOODNESS!
This has never happened to me before. Well, sort of, it happened a long time ago, but different mess. Oh ten or twelve years ago, hmm, I forget when, I was found in a pool of blood at Nanny Cay but I was in and out of the hospital in like 4 days or something speedy. THen I moved into the hotel and paid a bloody fortune to recuperate, as due to the emergency surgery, I couldnt get back on my boat right away. I spent a summer up in the foothills of the Blue Ridge mountains, getting stronger and then came back down to the BVI, hopped on my boat, and never looked back. I guess I shudda done some follow up care?????
I'm still alive! YIPPEE!!
I am trying to laugh and be positive and upbeat. The laptop and Internet has kept me from going nuts. But much of the day, I am just so tired, I just lay and stare at the ceiling and doze off into la de dah la la land.
I have cellular internet, I am not connected to the hospital net, not sure they even have internet, from what the starr tells me. The staff keeps saying, you have Internet? WOW! And I explain how it works on my laptop off the cell tower and so on.
I figured out how to download some funny TV shows then watch them and laugh. LAUGHTER is the best medicine!
I chant a lot.
And I meditate.
I also learned self-hypnosis from a prof hypnotist years back and I try that several times a day. It's great for pain management. Before they do awful things to me, I think about this really cool place in the mountains of SC/NC where there is this beautiful icy cold stream... and I let that icy cold stream chill me over and I don't feel a thing when they do the nasty to me...
It works too, unless they rush me and yell at me, but lately everyone has been so nice to me!
My friends brought in juice fruit and yogurt for my health and TREATS for my sanity *tee hee hee*.
The hospital doesn't accommodate special requests, you have to get on the phone and get someone to bring in your special requests.
My belly can't tolerate all these drugs without the yogurt. So I am so GRATEFUL to have a few good friends that have really been a HUGE help.
I pray for angels. I dream of angels. I see angels. Angels are keeping me alive.
AMEN TO ANGELS!!!